Caprice is Thinking Of You

Last night, Caprice sent me his new unreleased single, to be released soon, that he collaborated with his new upcoming artist, Annatasha, under his Caprice Productions label. It's called Thinking Of You. I know you must be wondering if it is the same song as Katy Perry's as Caprice is quite good in remixing songs with his own style. According to him, this version is not mixed properly yet, he just needed some opinion. It's supposed to be an exclusive preview, shhhhhh....as usual I always share his good songs with my close friends. Well..turn up your volume, have an open mind and listen to our very own Malaysian style young artist who has an appetite to conquer the world. And YES, I am a die hard Caprice fan ;) hehe.

Thinking Of You - Caprice feat Annastasha


And oh, he has uploaded the mtv into his youtube now. Annastasha is quite sweet. Enjoy!


Caprice Unreleased
1. Caprice REMIX Right Now (Go Down)
2. Caprice Malaysian Boy REMIX (American Boy)
3. Scatman REMIX
3. Thinking Of You feat Annastasha
4. Tuhan Tolonglah feat Rahim Maarof
5. Teman feat Hayad
6. Our Raya Song feat CLV
7. Fantasy Girls Part 2 Coming Soon

Right Now REMIX (Go Down).mp3 - Caprice

Malaysian Boy REMIX.mp3 - Caprice

Scatman REMIX - Caprice

Caprice's Released
1. Leng Lui
2. Dem Girls
3. Fantasy Girls









*all in all, my all time favourite is still Fantasy Girls, Dem Girls & Caprice REMIX Right Now (Go Down) of Akon's Right Now (Na Na Na)

Lets FLY

Last night, lalalus suddenly had a crazy idea that woke me up.

lalalus: i hav tis crazy idea.shld we both go apply 4 airasia crew end of tis year?then i got time 2 remove my tattoos.hmmmmmm...good?
lalalu: Hmm...let me digest and find out more about airasia. I thought of emirates actually. Can go further and more countries.
lalalus: i cant do emirates coz im married.d best 4 me is airasia.stay grounded yet able 2 travel n pay also so-so.but 4 u emirates wld b d thumbs up op!

Ok now lets compare.

THE UNIFORM

Emirates

SIA

MH

Air Asia



REQUIREMENTS

• Singapore or Malaysian citizenship
• Females who are at least 1.58m; Males who are at least 1.65m in height
• Degree/ Diploma
  OR
• At least 2 GCE ‘A’-level credits and 2 ‘AO’-level credits including General Paper in the GCE ‘A’-level examination
  OR
• At least 5 GCE ‘O’-level credits including English and working experience
• For Malaysian qualifications at SPM level, at least 5 credits including a minimum grade of B4 in English and working experience is required
• Completed, are exempted from, or are not liable for National Service. Those in the process of completing NS may also apply.

Singapore Airlines Come Fly With Us

SIA Cabin Crew

• Minimum age 21 years at the time of application.

• Minimum arm reach of 212 cms (83.5 inches) on tip toes, which will enable you to reach emergency equipment on all aircraft types.

• Educated to at least high school standard.

• Medically fit to meet aircrew requirements.

• Fluent in written and spoken English (fluency in another language is an asset).

• Previous experience in the service/hospitality industry is an advantage.

Finally, you will be the sort of person who has the natural ability to provide excellent service within a team environment.


If you are successful, you will be located in Dubai, the most modern and cosmopolitan of the Gulf cities, which is becoming renowned for its high-class tourist facilities and its high standard of living.

How To Be An Emirates Flight Attendant

Emirates Cabin Crew

• Malaysian citizen aged between 18 to 30 years.
• Minimum SPM or any equivalent qualification recognised by the Malaysian Government with a pass in Bahasa Malaysia, English, Mathematics and any other 3 subjects taken in one exam.
• Fluent in Bahasa Malaysia and English. Fluency in another language is an added advantage.
• Minimum height (weight in proportion): 165cm (male)/157cm (female)
• Excellent health and good eyesight. Not colour blind.
• Pleasant personality and a genuine passion in customer service. If you meet the above requirements, please attend our CABIN CREW WALK-IN INTERVIEWS to be held as follows:

Station:	Kuala Lumpur
Venue:	Malaysia Airlines Academy, No. 2, Jalan SS7/13, Kelana Jaya, Selangor
Date:	Saturday, 3 October 2009 (Flight Stewardess)
	Saturday, 10 October 2009 (Steward)

Registration time: 8.30 am to 12.00 noon Please bring along your letter of application, resume, original and certified true copies of academic certificates, IC and a recent passport-sized photograph (non-returnable).Candidates are advised to dress appropriately (office attire) for the interview (t-shirt, slippers and jeans are not allowed). Female candidates are encouraged to wear kebaya. Successful candidates will be required to sign a training bond. Employment will be based on a five-year contract. Candidates are advised to be prepared for a possibly long waiting period due to an anticipated high number of attendees.

Other Vacancies

We will advertise vacancies periodically in selected local newspapers and via our website.

You can also submit your application together with a detailed resume, certified true copies of certificates, academic transcripts, identification card and a recent passport size photograph (n.r) to the address below:

(For Cabin Crew applicants, please specify your height & weight and also provide a 3R full-length photograph (n.r):

MALAYSIA AIRLINES
MANAGER HUMAN RESOURCE (RESOURCING)
FIRST FLOOR, ADMIN BUILDING 4,
MAS COMPLEX B,
SULTAN ABDUL AZIZ SHAH AIRPORT,
47200 SUBANG,
SELANGOR DARUL EHSAN

Please indicate the position you are applying for on the top left corner of the envelope. Only shortlisted candidates will be notified.

MAS Careers

• Male & Female (Malaysian)
• SPM with credit in English and Bahasa Malaysia or equivalent
• Age: between 20 and 30 years old
• Male: Height minimum 170cm, maximum 183 cm barefoot
• Female: Height minimum 157cm, maximum 170cm barefoot
• Eyesight: 6/9
• Good communicational skills
• Happy, fun personality
• Fluent Spoken English and Bahasa Malaysia
• 1 recent colour passport size photograph
• 1 recent colour full body photograph (post card size) (3R)
• Post vacancy for all nationalities

Jobs With Air Asia

Air Asia Cabin Crew


BENEFITS

SIA

A monthly allowance will be provided during training. Upon graduation, you can look forward to a basic salary and various allowances amounting to about SGD3,500 (RM8400) a month. In addition, there will be an annual wage supplement of one month’s basic salary and profit-sharing bonus. You will also be entitled to free travel to any SIA destination once a year and enjoy discounted travel at other times.

Training

Our comprehensive training program will cover topics such as:

• Product Knowledge including Food & Beverage
• Service Procedures
• Passenger Handling
• Deportment & Grooming
• Language & Communication Skills
• Safety Equipment Procedures
• First Aid

EMIRATES
Award-winning Emirates Airline operates an ultra modern and fast growing fleet of wide bodied Airbus and Boeing long haul aircraft.


With their rapid growth, both in fleet size and network, Emirates is always on the lookout for exceptional career minded people. They currently employ people from over 120 different nationalities who speak over 80 different languages to cater for the truly multicultural clientele of over 88 destinations. The diversity and mix of nationalities, cultures, religions and ethnic backgrounds recruited into Emirates has contributed positively to the success they have achieved as an international Airline.


The Emirates recruitment team interviews candidates in many countries across the globe, with a focus on selecting those who have the natural ability to provide excellent service within a multicultural team environment. As Emirates expands its destinations the recruitment of candidates from other nationalities and backgrounds will continue.

• A three year renewable contract.
• A tax-free starting salary of AED 3,640 (approx. US$ 1,000) plus flying pay of approximately US$ 600 per month.
• High quality furnished shared accommodation (own bedroom).
• Comprehensive medical coverage.
• Free duty transport.
• End-of-service benefits. A bonus is also payable on completion of the first three year contract.
• Emirates will provide you annually with a confirmed ticket to your home country.
• Generous travel concessions on Emirates and other airlines.

AIRASIA
AirAsia is the leading low fare airline in Asia - bucking trends and growing in the most turbulent of times. We've defied the odds and convention, made headlines around the world, and earned numerous awards and accolades. We are expanding rapidly and here's your chance to be part of this young and dynamic team, who's determined to make the dream of affordable and meaningful air travel come true.

As a member of the AirAsia Team you too can enjoy our highly competitive and attractive compensation packages:

• 5-day work week
• Staff Flight Coupons - yearly free flight coupons
• Concession Travel - discount 90%
• Free Munch! - food and drink subsidy
• Performance Bonus
• Hospitalisation & Surgical - we also covers your spouse and children!
• Personal Accident, Term Life Insurance coverage
• Long Service Award
• Paternity Leave
• Compassionate leave
• Examination leave
• Career Progression opportunity - we mean it!

SIA, been there done that.
The question is should one go back and do it again or try something new?

The Tao

4

The Tao is like a well:
used but never used up.
It is like the eternal void:
filled with infinite possibilities.

It is hidden but always present.
I don't know who gave birth to it.
It is older than God.

5

The Tao doesn't take sides;
it gives birth to both good and evil.
The Master doesn't take sides;
she welcomes both saints and sinners.

The Tao is like a bellows:
it is empty yet infinitely capable.
The more you use it, the more it produces;
the more you talk of it, the less you understand.

Hold on to the center.

6

The Tao is called the Great Mother:
empty yet inexhaustible,
it gives birth to infinite worlds.

It is always present within you.
You can use it any way you want.

7

The Tao is infinite, eternal.
Why is it eternal?
It was never born;
thus it can never die.
Why is it infinite?
It has no desires for itself;
thus it is present for all beings.

The Master stays behind;
that is why she is ahead.
She is detached from all things;
that is why she is one with them.
Because she has let go of herself,
she is perfectly fulfilled.

8

The supreme good is like water,
which nourishes all things without trying to.
It is content with the low places that people disdain.
Thus it is like the Tao.

In dwelling, live close to the ground.
In thinking, keep to the simple.
In conflict, be fair and generous.
In governing, don't try to control.
In work, do what you enjoy.
In family life, be completely present.

When you are content to be simply yourself
and don't compare or compete,
everybody will respect you.

9

Fill your bowl to the brim
and it will spill.
Keep sharpening your knife
and it will blunt.
Chase after money and security
and your heart will never unclench.
Care about people's approval
and you will be their prisoner.

Do your work, then step back.
The only path to serenity.

Sigmund Freud's Theory on Dreams

Introduction to Sigmund Freud's Theory on Dreams

By Kevin Wilson
insomnium.co.uk

Freud maintained the notion that the dream fundamentally acts as the guardian of sleep. When we go to bed, the curtains are drawn, the lights are turned off and in effect we are attempting to disconnect from our reality by extinguishing all external stimuli. During the night, the mind protects the sleeper from being disturbed by reacting to further external stimuli (noise, temperature, light, the need to urinate, numb arm/leg, pain, etc) as well as all internal stimuli (emotions, fears, dissatisfaction, desires, previous day's activity) by manufacturing dreams.

Freud's work was solely concerned with internal stimuli. Essentially, for a person to continue to sleep undisturbed strong negative emotions, forbidden thoughts and unconscious desires have to be disguised or censored in some form or another. Otherwise, confronted by these, the dreamer would become distressed and they would eventually wake up. Therefore the dream, if understood correctly, could lead to a greater understanding of the dreamer's subconscious.

Freud believed the dream to be composed of two parts. The manifest and the latent content. The manifest content can be thought of as what a person would remember as soon as they wake - what they would consciously describe to someone else when recalling the dream. Freud suggested that the manifest content possessed no meaning whatsoever because it was a disguised representation of the true thought underlying the dream.

On the other hand, the latent content holds the true meaning of the dream - the forbidden thoughts and the unconscious desires. These appear in the manifest content but will be disguised and unrecognisable. Although in rare cases the manifest and latent content can be indistinguishable (Freud referred to these as 'Infantile dreams').

The process by which the latent content is transformed into the manifest content is known as the "dream work". The dream work can disguise and distort the latent thoughts in the following four ways:

1: Condensation: Two or more latent thoughts are combined to make up one manifest dream image or situation.

2: Displacement: Instead of directing the emotion or desire toward the intended person or object it is transferred onto a meaningless / unrelated object in the manifest dream.

3: Symbolism: Where complex or vague concepts are converted into a dream image. For this, the mind may use the image of a similar sounding (more recognisable) word instead or use a similar looking less intrusive object. According to Freud, dream symbols are for the most part sexual in meaning thus many dreams (but not all) have a sexual correlation.

For example, Freud suggested that objects such as tree-trunks, ties, all weapons, sticks, balloons, rockets and other elongated objects were all symbols for the male organ/an erection. Where boxes, cases, chests, cupboards, ovens, suitcases and other hollow objects represented the female genitalia. A room usually signified a woman but so could the whole house, a door or the whole dream landscape. The simple act of walking up a staircase, steps or ladders could also signify a sexual act.

Freud also had a fascination with symbols of castration, which he believed were represented in a dream by baldness, teeth falling out and the cutting of hair. In addition, the genitals could also be represented by another part of the body. For example, the male organ could be represented by a hand, the female organ represented by a mouth or an eye.

This could therefore explain the reason why the causes of 'wet dreams' are usually never the result of a normal sexual act within a dream.

The following is an extract from a dream I had on 16th January 2003:

I am walking through a building where I reach two large doors. I push them with all my force and they open onto playing fields. On the grass is an extremely large bookcase full of encyclopaedias. I stand still and watch two women, both of which are bare breasted. They are standing on top of the bookcase attempting to thread a balloon over some telephone wires. One of them calls out to me: "Thread the balloon for me while I put some clothes on." I agree although it was more difficult than I envisaged. Therefore when she returns she orders me to start again. Instead of attempting it again I run around a running track, although I become tired extremely quickly. I hear the woman call out: "You need to speed it up!" I reply: "This is the pace I always run at." Which was a blatant lie. Instead of completing a second lap of the running track, I decide to run in a straight line toward my house. The reason for which appears to be due to the size of the women's breasts, which were overwhelmingly threatening. I am now in my house...

4: Secondary Revision: This is the final stage of the dream work. According to Freud, this is where the dream loses 'the appearance of absurdity and incoherence.' In essence, secondary revision can be thought of as the ways in which the dream work covers up the contradiction and attempts to reorganise the dream into a pattern in sync with the dreamer's experience of everyday life.

Freud used the method of 'free association' to discover the underlying meaning behind the dream (latent content). A patient would describe a dream as accurately as possible (manifest content). The patient would then be told to focus on a specific element of the dream and form as many associations as they could. Essentially, allowing the patient to let their mind wander. This would continue until all manifest content associations (which had previously been unknown to the interpreter) had been discovered. This essentially means that the interpreter is moving in the opposite direction unravelling the 'dream work' until the latent content is revealed.

Freud insisted that dreams are a form of fulfilling suppressed wishes. If a wish (likely to be sexual in origin) goes unsatisfied during the dreamer’s normal day, the mind reacts to this 'internal stimuli' by transforming it into a visual fantasy - allowing the dreamer to satisfy his or her desire. The result of which is a peaceful night's sleep.

Step Back

3

If you overesteem great men,
people become powerless.
If you overvalue possessions,
people begin to steal.

The Master leads
by emptying people's minds
and filling their cores,
by weakening their ambition
and toughening their resolve.
He helps people lose everything
they know, everything they desire,
and creates confusion
in those who think that they know.

Practice not-doing,
and everything will fall into place.

Yin & Yang

2

When people see some things as beautiful,
other things become ugly.
When people see some things as good,
other things become bad.

Being and non-being create each other.
Difficult and easy support each other.
Long and short define each other.
High and low depend on each other.
Before and after follow each other.

Therefore the Master
acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.
Things arise and she lets them come;
things disappear and she lets them go.
She has but doesn't possess,
acts but doesn't expect.
When her work is done, she forgets it.
That is why it lasts forever.

There There

Sultan introduced this song to me. I asked What's There? He said, "Just because you feel it doesnt mean its there." I thought, Dejavu? I remember I saw this line before but just cant recall where and when. Anyway the lyrics are special, here goes,

by RADIOHEAD

in pitch dark i go walking in your landscape
broken branches trip me as i speak
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there

there's always a siren
singing you to shipwreck
(don't reach out, don't reach out)
steer away from these rocks
we'd be a walking disaster
(don't reach out, don't reach out)

just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there
(there's someone on your shoulder)
just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there
(there's someone on your shoulder)

there there

why so green and lonely?
heaven sent you to me

we are accidents
waiting waiting to happen

we are accidents
waiting waiting to happen

Released:	June 2003
Foundon:	Hail to the Thief & There There single
"There There" originally debuted on February 10, 2000 during one of the few webcasts Radiohead did for their fans while recording Kid A. The song made its second debut as the opening song in Lisbon, Portugal on July 22, 2002. It was released as the first single from Hail to the Thief on May 26, 2003 in the UK. The song reached number four in the UK and number one in Canada. It also received moderate airplay from US modern rock stations and was nominated for a Grammy Award for Best Rock Performance, making it the band's most successful US radio single since "Karma Police" in 1997. Like many Radiohead songs of the 2000s, "There There" is described by the band as heavily indebted to the band Can, whose songs Radiohead have also covered. Coproduced by Radiohead and Nigel Godrich, the track apparently made lead singer Thom Yorke well up with tears when he heard it in its completed, mixed and mastered state. Though in the final studio recording found on Hail to the Thief and released as a single, the song begins with a synthetic rhythm, live performances of "There There" always begin with all members of Radiohead (except Yorke and Colin Greenwood) on drums. The song has frequently been a concert opener since 2002, when it made its official debut as part of a tour of Portugal and Spain. An incomplete version of the song had been played in a live Internet webcast by Radiohead in early 2001. The song has also been performed solo on acoustic guitar by Thom Yorke on several occasions, beginning at Neil Young's Bridge School Benefit in October 2002. The alternate title for the song as listed on the track listing for the album is The Boney King of Nowhere. This is apparently in reference to an episode of the British children's television show Bagpuss, of which Yorke and his young son are professed fans. A Bagpuss-inspired music video was filmed for "There There." Directed by Chris Hopewell, it features Yorke wandering through a dark forest and meeting animals in a fairy tale atmosphere, ending with a stark moral. The video received an award for art direction at the 2003 MTV Video Awards. The singles for "There There" featured two b-sides. "Paperbag Writer" was created mostly by Yorke, with band member Colin Greenwood adding a bassline. "Where Bluebirds Fly," an electronic piece with wordless vocals, was originally heard as the band's entrance music on their 2002 tour. It has received one live performance: in March 2005, Thom Yorke performed it at the UK Ether Festival with the Arab Orchestra of Nazareth and soloist Lubna Salame, and the London Sinfonietta, also backed by ondes martenot played by band member Jonny Greenwood.

Billie

Billie is the first girl I know who has this unique name. When we introduced ourselves in October 2004, she said her name was Billie with an "e". She proudly said that it is a guy's name but it is also her name. I thought to myself, this girl has a unique personality and her name really suit her, a feminine and masculine name. From then onwards, her name is stuck on my mind, the Billie with an e.

Billie is such a jovial and friendly girl. She should be called Billie Jovial. She is always smiling, melting hearts everywhere she goes. Whenever she is around, you will hear her laughter and her NEVERending stories. Sometimes, she appears to be naive but under that pure innocence lies a strong and matured girl. Billie is not only beautiful, she has a kind heart. You don't get to meet people with a kind heart and the face of an angel often. Billie is that girl. She is an angel, my angel. Through the years, she has always been there. She is the kind of girl who will stand by you no matter what happens. She will help whatever she can even if she doesn't have the capability to do it. She is never short of offering. She is all about giving. How can one not love her and cherish her? She has a unique mind, so unique sometimes you need to digest or process when she speaks, because she speaks so quickly and with a cute slang in her words. But I love the way she speaks because it makes you smile in your heart and you laugh a genuine laugh. I love her lambness and her kainess. That is Billie! When she is not around, I start to miss her voice, althou sometimes naggy and noisy, I miss her "Gimme gimme more, gimme gimme". :) hehe. I will always remember the time we spent talking till dawn and dipping our little feets into the pool at P.D with sunglasses, talking and laughing at Chin swimming in the children's pool. Oh how I miss all our time spent together, with you my lil sister. I always wanted to have a younger sister and god sent you to me. I thank you for everything. I't your birthday to day...here I wish you...

Precious Billie,
Today is your day,
The day you were born the world embraced a beautiful babygirl,
A Beautiful Princess,
The Princess of all princesses,
All good & wonderful things is COMING to you,
You are LOVED and will be PAMPERED,
All because you have a Wonderful Heart,
Have A *Happy* Birthday Sweetie!

This song is dedicated to you. Because you always tell me this is your song.

BILLIEJEAN

She was more like a beauty queen From a movie scene I said, don't mind But what do you mean I am the one Who will dance on the floor in the round She said I am the one who will dance On the floor in the round She told me her name was Billie Jean As she caused a scene Then every head turned with eyes That dreamed of being the one Who will dance on the floor in the round People always told me Be careful what you do And don't go around Breaking young girls' hearts And mother always told me, Be careful who you love Be careful what you do 'Cause the lie becomes the truth Billie Jean is not my lover She's just a girl who claims that I am the one But the kid is not my son She says I am the one But the kid is not my son For forty days and forty nights The law was on her side But who can stand When she's in demand Her schemes and plans Cause we danced on the floor in the round So take my strong advice Just remember to always think twice Do think twice She told my baby We’d danced ‘til three Then she looked at me Then showed a photo My baby cried His eyes were like mine Coz we dance on the floor, in the round, baby She came and stood right by me Then the smell of sweet perfume This happened much too soon She called me to her room.

*sayang you so much*

Sea, Sand, Surf & Sunshine

Finally arrived at Kuala Besut after 12 hours of journey...phew..

Pure White Nite to Day

In the speedboat we go to Perhentian Kecil!!!

Walking from the new jetty to Bubu Resort

Had our fruit punch welcome drink while waiting for our rooms

Beach Time!!

My Darlings

LOveeee the beach!

Candid

Preparing for Chris's Hens Nite

Gathering to have dinner on the beach

Stopped for happy pictures time

While waiting for our food at Panorama Cafe

Act really cute

Everyone look at the bride

Kiss the bride

Then Hens Nite Party has begun

Dare No.1 - to go up to an angmoh and ask for his number
(she did in front of the angmoh's girlfriend who was sporting enough)

Dare No. 2 - to go up to an angmoh to ask for a dance
We had very sporting crowd who joined in the fun and made alot of noises!

Dare No 3 - to ask the DJ to off all music and to shout "I'm getting married!"
The crowd cheered and congratulated her!

Chris, The Sporting Lovely Bride-To-Be

Samantha my humor partner


DAY 2

Beach time with my girls are the best!

Turning our backs on unhappiness

Colourful Wonderful

Blissful Happiness

Mi & Mi (Shaemy & I)

Walking to the jetty to jump OFF!

Delia doing her JUMP


Sarong Party Night

The night's dinner is Cup Noodles & 1 hour mahjong

Sarong Party at Panorama (R&B songs)

Alco for the night

me lia chris sam lene mi

All 12 of us

The guy in green "Funniest Man with Sound Effects"

No flash

Picture with the Toy Monkey

We love our Float times

Good Friends are people who are there for you at the right time

Cocky & Funny Sam *love her effortless jokes*

"The Sea, once it cast its spell, hold in its net of wonder forever."

~Jacques Cousteau~


“Our memories of the ocean will linger on, long after our footprints in the sand are gone.”

"The cure for anything is salt water, sweat, tears, or the sea."

~Isak Dinesen~

“Why do we love the sea? It is because it has some potent power to make us think things we like to think.”
~Robert Henri~

Did you see the silver lining on the clouds? :)


“Eternity begins and ends with the ocean's tides.”


“As the ocean is never full of water, so is the heart never full of love”

“We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop.”
~Mother Theresa~

"When the waves kiss your feet, the sand is your seat & and your friends out number the stars"

From top left:
Vienna, Nico, Priscilla, Shaemy, Delia, Girly, Samantha, Agnest, Jolene, me, Chris and Yvonne

New made friends:
Dandy, Imran, Zeid, Ridzuan, Azlan, Lovebirds

The Perhentian Groupie


Zeid On Air

Zeid's Jumping Stunts

Dandy, Zeid & Imran - Off They Jump!!!

*photos courtesy of Yvonne, Delia, Dandy & Imran*

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Our Perhentian Kecil 2009 Trip @ Bubu Resort
07.05.09 - 10.05.09
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“I dropped a tear in the ocean, and whenever they find it I'll stop loving you, only then.”